Abuser disabled me and still believes I want him. Please share my story!

National Enquirer trying to get Jeff Bazos to submit to their demands by essentially threatening to embarrass him is exactly parallel to what is happening to me by the choices I made to stand up to the threats I received via an anonymous  message on May 5, 2018. The bullying began using the system, three weeks after I did not comply with the demands to stop … Continue reading Abuser disabled me and still believes I want him. Please share my story!

Below clavicle is the chest, above it the neck. Facts vs Gaslighting

Sharing the narrative behind the screenshots and photos is always reassuring and helpful in deciphering fact from fiction – it has kept me feel sane. I had never experienced gaslighting, and it has been the most difficult aspect of the emotional abuse I endured to overcome.  The opportunities he continues to present to me will play a major in being vindicated.  Never again will he control … Continue reading Below clavicle is the chest, above it the neck. Facts vs Gaslighting

Shame on you Vincent C. Beggs for telling me to “act” to put you out of your “misery!

No, he didn’t care then and he doesn’t care now about my life or my children’s lives.  Otherwise he wouldn’t be such a barbarian – Our lives are worthless to him and his enablers. If you are experiencing the same, know you aren’t alone nor was it your imagination. Hang in there because you are the best reason to live. First and foremost, I still … Continue reading Shame on you Vincent C. Beggs for telling me to “act” to put you out of your “misery!

Intent

Despite the accusations my intent was never to be vocal or publicize the abuse I endured. I started the blog to address the lies I knew were being told. It was my way of outing what he was telling me so his ex wife and mutual friends knew what he was leading me to believe. After his arrest he established a blog professing his love. … Continue reading Intent

How to survive gaslighting: when manipulation erases your reality

He told me the bruises on my body could have happened as a result of my bumping into things.  I looked at him, speechless.  When I was able to speak I asked if he was serious, which he responded to by babbling on.  A few days when I called him on it, he simply denied having ever suggested the bruises were not real.   Ariel … Continue reading How to survive gaslighting: when manipulation erases your reality

Today was a good day…

Today was a great day with two pieces of wonderful news. Will share when time is right. In the meantime, came across this on moving forward after Narcissistic Abuse.  Verified by Psychology Today Peg Streep Friend me on Faceook Why Recovering From the Narcissist in Your Life Is So Hard Plus 4 strategies to help you recover Posted Jun 20, 2016 “Get over this? How do you … Continue reading Today was a good day…

The Unbearable Lightness of Being a Narcissist

The Unbearable Lightness of Being a Narcissist Elizabeth MikaMay 13, 2016 Written with Frederick Burkle Narcissism in America is all the rage these days — even more so than usual, and that really says something — not in the least because of the popular GOP presidential candidate who is the center of media’s attention, a subject of dinner talks, friendly chats at the post office, local KKK meetings, neo-Nazi … Continue reading The Unbearable Lightness of Being a Narcissist

If You’re Having Suicidal Thoughts, Please Read This — Fox&Co. Mental Health

“When you suffered it all, and your spirit is breaking, you’re growing desperate from the fight. Remember you’re loved, and you always will be.” – Chester Bennington, The Messenger via If You’re Having Suicidal Thoughts, Please Read This — Fox&Co. Mental Health Continue reading If You’re Having Suicidal Thoughts, Please Read This — Fox&Co. Mental Health

Narcissistic Abuse Victim Syndrome is Like Being in a Cult

Via  Fairytales Shadows Narcissistic Abuse Victim Syndrome is Like Being in a Cult Kristen Milstead Both cult victim syndrome and narcissistic abuse victim syndrome are horrific and can have lasting and traumatizing effects on the victim. No one wants to be a victim of a cult any more than they want to be a victim of narcissistic abuse. The one advantage that cult victim syndrome has … Continue reading Narcissistic Abuse Victim Syndrome is Like Being in a Cult

Updated 1.20.19 “Drowning” depicts what it was like being with the coward

    Ditto! Her description of drowning and paralysis resonated with me. I felt I was drowning and was always panicked, never knowing when the next wave was going to hit.  The darkness and devastation this coward inflicted upon me was life changing, but I am a fighter and I am someone who fixes things.  I am hanging on because I am determined to make … Continue reading Updated 1.20.19 “Drowning” depicts what it was like being with the coward

The Gift of the Narcissist…Should You Choose To Accept It

 by Patrick John Coleman    Only to the extent that we expose ourselves over and over to annihilation can that which is indestructible in us be found.’ -Pema Chodron Narcissism is vastly misunderstood in our society. Many confuse it with simple vanity or a super-high interest in oneself. While you should have a healthy interest in yourself and be a little selfish when a narcissist appears in your life … Continue reading The Gift of the Narcissist…Should You Choose To Accept It

Careful…You don’t want to end up like me.

I’m here to share my story of abuse with my ex abuser, Vincent C. Beggs, Wells Fargo VP, with the hope for others to share their story without fear and the hope that someday we can make shaming the abused a thing of a past. I’m not a jilted lover nor unstable, same word he used to describe his ex wife when we first met … Continue reading Careful…You don’t want to end up like me.

Psychology Psychological Murder: Death By Covert Abuse

Updated on March 21, 2018 Sparkster Publishing  Marc Hubs is a writer/researcher on mind, science, and conspiracy. He is the author of “Know Your Enemy: Reflections of NPD.”   Pernicious Abuse It goes unrecognized but it exists. It exists on an extremely covert level. It happens behind the scenes without anyone even being aware of what the problem is; the real problem. No evidence of … Continue reading Psychology Psychological Murder: Death By Covert Abuse

The One Major Thing That Makes Narcissistic Abuse Different — In the Shadows of the Fairy Tale

Narcissists are cruel. Narcissists can belittle, name-call, shame, fluctuate between “honeymoon periods” and “abusive periods,” be controlling and possessive, physically and sexually abuse, ruin someone’s finances, live double lives, and engage in serially cheating. They may do any of these things or all of them, and because of a systematic pattern of behaviors as tipped… via The One Major Thing That Makes Narcissistic Abuse Different — … Continue reading The One Major Thing That Makes Narcissistic Abuse Different — In the Shadows of the Fairy Tale